It's like clockwork. Every time I get a little free time on my hands where there isn't anything to worry about (like now during my month long break from college) I get so depressed about my alopecia that I just feel so sick and tired of it all like I just want to be able to go to sleep and never wake up again because the effort of making my family and everyone else feel like I'm okay with everything is just too much. I love my family to death and they have been nothing but supportive but at the moment they are under enough stress that I just don't want to push my own problems on top of theirs. I've been to a therapist in the past but other than getting a good cry out every now and again it didn't really help and if I go see her then my parents will know how bad I'm doing right now and I just don't want them to have to worry about me right now. I guess it hasn't helped that I had to start looking for a new wig again since my old one was getting worn out, because no matter what looking for a wig always makes me feel so angry and frustrated and just worse in general. But its also the everyday things like my twin sister and my mum getting haircuts and just anybody talking about hair in general. I've never told my mum or my sister how much it hurts to hear them complain about a bad haircut or talk about going to the salon because they would feel so bad that it would make me feel even worse about everything and I'm not going to go tell some strangers to shut up especially when they don't know I have alopecia. I"m just sick of spending all of these important milestones in my life feeling like garbage like high school graduation or starting college. Nothing feels like a fresh start or like it matters because I'm always feeling like I have to lie to everybody but my family about who I really am. I guess I'm just at a loss, I don't know what to do anymore. Any suggestions?