Hi, i found out about Alopecia World yesterday. Im a 24 year old girl. I started losing my hair since 2010, first i thought its just a phase or stress related as my sister died in 2008, was tough losing her as we were so close. I had beautiful long thick hair one of the benefits of being asian. Back to the hair loss i started noticing more and more hair falling out. So i stopped combing my hair in fear of losing my hair even more. Went to the doctors they didnt really have answers. So i just started to ignore it. Bought wigs, hats and scarves. Basically i kept it a secret for 2 whole years, never told a soul. Then i met a wonderful guy, we started going out, i really fell in live with him but at the back of my mind my baldness was always on my mind as i never told him either. He wanted me to move in. I started to feel upset, lost all my confidence, lost all my self esteem. Eventually i told him n he said he still loved me and wanted to be with me. By this stage i didnt believe a single word he said. I felt too ugly for him, not good enough for him. I felt i was going to be a embarrassment to him. I thought why would a guy want to be with a bald girl when he can be with a pretty girl with hair and confidence. So i pushed him away. He now thinks i strung him along and didnt love him. He basically did not get how i felt thought i was vain and said i should just get over it, but how can you be vain if you dont have hair. So we argued so much and called it a day. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin. I had a dream of getting married, wanted to do my hair up with a tiara on my wedding day and have lovely photos taken. I know it sounds pathetic but that was my dream since a lil girl. Im so unhappy about my baldness, cant accept it. Im waiting for the day i finally feel uncomfortable in my own skin. Ive lost my hair and the man i love. Some days are so hard cause deep down i know i wont meet a man to love me as much as he loved me. I dont think i will meet any man in the first place but if i do i know i will push him away myself.