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Permalink Reply by Baldman2323 on September 25, 2018 at 4:04pm

Look, I know you're young and being a girl this "disease" is probably much harder than you than for me a 33 year old already bald man. But I think I can give you some advice if you bear with me and read my post about one lesson I learned in life that hopefully I could pass on to you.

I started out my life much like yourself wanting you serve in the armed forces. It was the only thing I thought and cared about. I lived, ate, breathed everything that had to do with the military. Then one day in my early teens my parents noticed that I would wake up in the middle of the night all stiff so they took me to the doctors and after a series of tests they diagnosed me with epilepsy and I felt like the world had ended and my dream was dead. The doctor said sorry son but no military service for you. 

After that I stopped caring about everything. I started getting involved heavily with drugs and crime. Really heavily. When I was tweenty I found out that I never had epilepsy but that it was just plain old anxiety but at this point I no longer cared. Instead of cleaning up my act and pursuing my childhood dream (which deep down was still alive and well) I felt weak, insecure, and fearful. Thus I decided to double down on drugs and crime. I went to jail, lost all my friends to either drugs or violence.

Then one day I was 27 years old with nothing to show for the past 15 years of my life except for a long wrap sheet a fucked up liver and a string of funerals from all the people I lost and a shitty bachlors degree that I barely got. I decided that enough was enough and quit all that shit and started to turn my life around.

Today at 33 my life is completely different than it was. I'm working in research building machine learning and AI models for research in psychiatry. I got my Masters Degree in Medical Science and am about to embark on my PhD. I'm also running a small business on the side and I've made a lot of money in a short amount of time. 

Now you might ask sure great good for you what's the point of all this? Well I'll tell you. Not a day goes by that I don't regret going into the military at 20 when I found out I didn't have epilepsy. NOTHING in this life is worse than giving up on your dreams because of fear. NOTHING. Not even prison, overdosing on drugs, hurting those you love, or even losing those that are close to you. It will haunt you for the rest of your life and you can never go back and change it.

You've got one life. And beauty fades. Fuck it be the best you can be. Throw that wig and those fake ass eye lashes in the trash. Put two middle fingers up to the world and tell it and the standards it sets for female beauty to go fuck itself. March into the nearest recruitment office and sign up as a proud confident patriot who is willing to put her life down for the country she loves. If you can do this you will prove to yourself and the world that you have an inner strength that most people on this earth lack and this will carry you so far in life to places that you cannot even imagine. 

If you don't. Then you'll live your life ruled by fear and fade into obscurity filled with bitterness and regret.

But that's just my two cents. Hope it's worth something.

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Permalink Reply by Zara Brown on May 29, 2019 at 12:47am

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