My thoughts

Hello!

First of all..sorry for my english,I'm Italian and this is the only site where I can speak about my story...

I'm 35 years old and I've alopecia areata for seven years but in the last seven months i've lost my eyebrows, partial eyelash and the spots on my head are growing up.... I'm confused, I feel panic I can't see me on the mirror... In this years i never told to anybody that I've alopecia (only my family, my best friend and my ex girl know...) but now it's obvious... the resut... I go to work, go back to home and I stay at home every single days, every single nights.. I don't feel good with other people... above all with people that i know... 

The looks of people hurts me.

Every morning I wash my head and then  hide my spots with hair buildings fibers... but now i'm tired... maybe i must shave my head but it's so hard..

This week-end i must go to a party after one year of  worldliness "isolation" ... I'm afraid!!!

Before the alopecia i was a normal boy.. i knew a lot of people.. i liked to stay with people.. i had girls..i made several trips all around the world... but everythings changed

"why it's happend to me??"..... I think there is no answer...

Today I just needed to write how i feel....

thank you


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Permalink Reply by Steve on August 9, 2015 at 3:33pm

Hi Angelo,

I can totally relate to you're story as it is very similar to mine. Unfortunately, I believe there is no words or advise that anyone can truly give you to solve this problem. Our words can only aid and soothe you're pain. 

I was 17 when I first got AA and now that I am 24 it has developed into AT. It was truly devastating to me and it utterly destroyed my confidence. I never went out the house without a hat on and even wore it around my family as I hated the way I looked so much. However, through the support off my family and trying my best to stay in a positive mine frame I am slowly rebuilding my life. The way I am coping is that I am giving myself tasks or milestones I much achieve i.e; going to the shop with no hat and showing telling certain people all about my AT. This is truly helping and little by little it gives me that boost and its helping me to regain my confidence. I also eventually shaved my head also. That was a very groundbreaking moment for me and gave me a lot of courage. I no longer let my AT take control of me and i have taken control of it. However, I will be honest, I have a lot more to work on and it still effects me a lot. I am still get my low days.

I believe that if you take you're life day by day and continue to gauge in the support you're loved ones give you, you will be in a happier place in you're life. Don't hide away - strengthen the courage to tackle you're life. Engage in activities that you used too. Don't take notice off the people unaware off what you are suffering. You are truly strong and inspirational as all people suffering from this disease are. Nobody can imagine the pain it brings. I truly hope you gain more happiness in you're daily struggle. It is possible and you will achieve it. Enjoy the happy moment that occur in you're life and go and create a billion more and seriously just go and go a massive "F**k you" to alopecia. 

Permalink Reply by Angelo on August 10, 2015 at 11:27am

Hi Steve,

thank you so much. I relly appreciate your words.. They make me feel a little less alone!!

Saturday I went to the party, it has been hard but honestly I realized then that it is not all black. Little steps as you wrote can help!!!! and "F**k you" to alopecia!!!!!!!

thanks again

Angelo

Permalink Reply by Steve on August 10, 2015 at 4:09pm

You have many people on this site who are going through the exact same situation so don't feel alone. I see where you are coming from though as I am sure we have all felt the same. I certainly have.

Way to go on attending the party man! You should be so proud. Its the step like that which lead to you moving on to a happier place. Don't stall.. continue these steps in little movements. They will help!!

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