Hey, guys! My name is Kevin and I haven't participated in any forums in a long time. I have been happy lately and I only come on here when I have a problem. I will try to come on here more to support you guys and everything we go through together as our own little community. I have AA. Fortunately for me, my head hair is still up and running. Unfortunately for me, my eyebrows are gone, along with all of my right eyelashes and my leg hair. Despite losing all of the above, I disguise myself and fool people every day of my life; even the girl I've been dating for a month, and have been talking with for two months. This girl is so gorgeous, but even more beautiful on the inside. She feels for me so much and loves the way I treat her. We are so much alike and we click instantly and can talk about anything. Even if we don't have plans and we're just hanging out, we make it a really fun time. But all this while, I have been disguising myself from her and keeping her from the real truth about me - my biggest secret. It hurts me inside to hide it from her, but I know that if a girl knew about my AA before she got a chance to know me, I wouldn't get a chance at all. That's just been my mindset these past 8 years. But I actually think my girlfriend now would still give me a chance even if she had known. However, this conversation tomorrow still frightens me. I always kind of trap girls and make them fall for me first, then tell them. One time I told a girl I was talking to for four months but not dating yet, and she played it off like she didn't care, then dumped me a week later. It's girls like that that don't deserve me, or anybody else but some douche bag. But that really affected me, and has an impact on how I am feeling about tomorrow, regardless of how nice my girlfriend is. Anyways, I am just fishing for some good lucks and will keep you posted about her reaction. This is always tough - there will be tears on my end because of how much Alopecia sucks. The worst thing about Alopecia is how we have no control over it. We only have control over who we tell and how we act when we're in public. If she accepts me for who I am tomorrow, then I could give two fucks about how I look towards other people. I seriously need this; not only so I can continue this amazing relationship, but also to look Alopecia in the face and say, "Fuck you. I can date anybody I want and you can't do anything about it." I may not be able to grow my hair back tomorrow, but I'm able to grow back my confidence. Thank you for reading this. Please keep me in your prayers as I will for you.