I'm new to this discussion thing so I'm not really sure where to start.
Well I'm 19 and I've been losing hair since I was 17.
I'm still in the trying to treat it stage. I was on cortisol and that did cause some regrowth, but I had to go off that and when I was on it it made my acne get really bad. Now and the new drug hasn't stopped all the loss so I'm worried that next time I go back to the dermatologist she'll tell me that there's nothing more she can do.
I used to wear bandannas but now beanies are the only thing that covers all the patches. I've grown to hate them so much, and between the beanies, having to draw on my eyebrows and my acne I feel really self conscious all the time.
I do have a really loving and supportive boyfriend and family, but I just can't explain to them what it's like and I can't really talk about it because what is there to say beyond "I hate the way I look."
Sometimes I get angry at myself because I feel like I'm being really vain and selfish, I could have some life-threatening illness to go with the hair loss but I don't. Other times I can barely look at myself in the mirror without crying.
I don't want this to rule my life. I've just finished my first year of university and really want to do well and have a career helping people, but I just feel like this is always at the back of my mind, waiting for the right moment to upset me again.
I just don't know how I'm going to cope if I get told that I'm going to have to wear a wig before I'm 20
I really feel for you. I was 15 when i started losing my hair and tried many treatments. some worked some did not... however i was one of the unlucky ones and ended up losing all my hair by the time i was 22. Teen and early 20s were very hard for me. Dating was excruciating trying to decide if i would tell the person i wore a wig or just not really get close enough to people... I don't think i really accepted me as the perfect person God intended me to be until late 20s. It that time when people would say "oh i like your hair" or "did you color your hair?". i would simply answer-- i bought new hair. then if they looked puzzled i would say.. i thought you knew... i wear a wig because i have alopecia and leave it at that. All my coworkers know and it makes things easier for me. But i too think i'm a little bit vain. I envy those people that can go out in public bald -- i never have, and i don't think i could. I will be thinking of you.