Hi everyone.
I'm new to this discussion thing so I'm not really sure where to start.
Well I'm 19 and I've been losing hair since I was 17.
I'm still in the trying to treat it stage. I was on cortisol and that did cause some regrowth, but I had to go off that and when I was on it it made my acne get really bad. Now and the new drug hasn't stopped all the loss so I'm worried that next time I go back to the dermatologist she'll tell me that there's nothing more she can do.
I used to wear bandannas but now beanies are the only thing that covers all the patches. I've grown to hate them so much, and between the beanies, having to draw on my eyebrows and my acne I feel really self conscious all the time.
I do have a really loving and supportive boyfriend and family, but I just can't explain to them what it's like and I can't really talk about it because what is there to say beyond "I hate the way I look."
Sometimes I get angry at myself because I feel like I'm being really vain and selfish, I could have some life-threatening illness to go with the hair loss but I don't. Other times I can barely look at myself in the mirror without crying.
I don't want this to rule my life. I've just finished my first year of university and really want to do well and have a career helping people, but I just feel like this is always at the back of my mind, waiting for the right moment to upset me again.
I just don't know how I'm going to cope if I get told that I'm going to have to wear a wig before I'm 20