YAY!! I finally did it with the Help of Jesus!! Not by might... I have given up the wigs.
I went to work without a wig, and guess what!!! I feel freeeee!!! I got the stares and the wows.
Even one guy who saw me last week with my wig asked, "What kind of treatment are you having?" I said "HUH? Oh I don't have cancer, I have alopecia" … he was very puzzled.
What else could I say but he made my day, he really was being sooo nice to me, making jokes. He even came back to show his friend, in a sneaky way, saying he forgot something (both are doctors). He said he will be back in 2 weeks to bother me again! haha!
Later in the day I had to do postings all around the main campus. At first I put on a pink hat that you can clearly see I have no hair on my head and did not match my striped zebra sweater. I heard my sister say in mind “what’s the point people can tell you're bald anyway.” I took the hat off put on my headphones and walked the campus with confidence.
People stared, but to be honest no one really cared. Unless they knew me from before. Even if that’s the case they never approached me to ask any questions. I am much bolder without hair!!!
Many of the women say they like my new look. Men were puzzled. Overall I got a lot of sympathy (I guess they thought I had cancer). One woman kept saying are you ok? How’s everything? Will you be ok? I responded I’m well thank you. And she left by shouting " and look at that beautiful woman over there" . I dont know how to respond to this! Even yesterday on my way to church on the train a group of runner, running for cancer stood over me, Im like just great! LOL
I am happy not because I was able to let go of the hair but I am happy that Jesus made away. Happiness comes from him and not things, not what we wear, what we eat, or what we drink. All those things will change (just like our hair). I have found out that God is still the same! He has never failed me. I thank God for his mercy and grace.
My acceptance started with him!!!
How do I respond to the sympathy (that makes me feel like I am dying) Maybe I can start saying I am well Thank God alopecia doesn't Kill? Whats your response?