i found another spot today so i don't really want to write much - i feel very powerless that's basically it -i am angry and sad and i feel powerless- some part of me is trying to make this ok- some things outside of this are ok in my life- other things suck - just like this - but this hurts so much -

it just seems like no one understands - if i hear from one more person that at least i don't have cancer or didn't lose my arm or leg i think i am going to freak out-