I'm struggling with myself, it's my appearance and dating. Not sure what to do or how to act. Help!

I asked the question why me Lord?
This Alopecia has caused me to fall and have no reason to live!!!! My hair is growing and falling out! I have been to several doctors and so many treatments. I'm so tried of people looking at me and having to pay money for hair that sometimes does not look rt! It's not a good feeling at all!!!! I hate the way I look now and finding it hard everyday do look myself in the face or even leave the house!!!!

I'm just going to have to be a big girl and deal with it!!!!!!! what more can I say to myself........ it's a hard thing but it could be something else like.........