wow, sry i havent checked in in such a long time! i've been soooo busy its not even funny. well, to start off with, spencer dumped me. but im not sad. i wanted to dump him. but i was scared and he beat me to the punch. then, his ex-best friend asked me out. and i dumped him. he was going waaay to fast. i mean he said "i love u" the first day we went out!!! and then he kissed me the second. after that, all he wanted to do was make out! but the day before i broke up w/ him, i told him about my alopecia. he said he loved me for me. and that only made me feel guiltier! i told tj i wasnt ready for the kind of relationship he wanted. and he said he wanted to wait until i was!!! uugh! the 3rd guy to tell me "ily" and i end up breaking up with 2 aand being dumped by one. but i like keaton now! hes my bff(guywise) but if i end up going out with him i might end up not liking him after ahile (which is what keeps happening) and then things'll be wierd. and his gf just broke up w/ him so we can be sad together. wow this is a really long blog. im really hyper. i can't stop typing. i miss keaton! i've had too much caffine! i have to go to bed. nite!