So, at the beginging of November I was laid off from my job. It has been a wonderful oppurtunity because now I have to do what I planned on doing in a few months. The problem is I know what I want but, I have to take all these baby steps to get it. I wish it would come quicker than what it's coming. As for my future in Wisconsin, I don't plan on staying here much longer after I finish my degree but, I don't know where I want to go. I haven't be able to travel much since I was fifteen and I am sure my ideal place has changed quite a bit since then. I know that I also want to find the one woman I can't live without but, I don't know who or where she is. I am pretty sure she isn't here. I know what I want on the more intimate side and I have not found this in my area. I don't openly share my turn ons and I never will. It's not that I am embarassed by it/them it's that many people think things about me that aren't true. These things are more than just turn ons also, I always tried to find the positive value in everything that happens in my life but, way to many times I have gotten ridiculed for this. I have shared a lot of my personal things with women that I have dated and my ex-wife did pratice some them for awhile just to tell me that she only did them to make me happy. I don't want some one to feel they have to give up their beliefs and morals to make me happy and I never want them to feel it is a neccesity to do them because at the end of the day there are more important isses to worry about than if the person would do these things. Don't get me wrong, I would be very happy to find that one woman that found these personal things interesting and worth doing as much as I do. I am beginning to think that me being open minded is a downfall/ fault and not a positive trait. I have always been told that nice guys finish last and that saying rings so true in my life and always has.