My mom has been asking for years that we take a picture, all four of her kids in the same room together…. Ha! I’ve always said hell no! I am not a photogenic person plus I’ve always been insecure with my weight and physical appearance, plus not to mention all of us work and never really have time for anything. This year I finally decided its time, were getting older and it may be the last time we ever have a chance to slow down and do something good for the person whom gave us life. So I called the siblings and set the date for our first “Mothers Day Portrait”! it was great we all actually took the time to do this for mom, Mothers day rolled around and we gave her the portrait she cried and said “this is the best gift I have ever received from anyone thank you my kids for taking the time to do something unselfish, you have made me the happiest … gee she actually made me cry. I am not the type of person who is emotional; and seeing her like that was indescribable.
About 2 weeks later on a Friday I woke up as usual for work, took a shower, ironed my clothes, blew dry my hair and then straightened it, as I was straightening my hair I found a bald spot on my head I was in deep shock tears were flowing and the fear hit me hard my heart felt like it was beating 1,000 beats per minute, I hysterically grabbed the mirror and began looking all over my head only to find out I had more..... As I drove to work crying thoughts were going through my head am I dying? What is this? Do I have a disease? Is it contagious? Will my kids get this? But the most important question at the time was WHERE THE HELL IS ALL THE FREAKING HAIR?????? When I arrived to work I couldn’t concentrate I would step out and cry , after I work I asked my mom to check my hair there were 4 bald spots that she seen the worry and shock in her face was unexplainable, I called my daughters father and told him what was going on he was on his way to drop her off as it was my weekend with her, when he arrived he seen my head he began to cry he took her back home with him and I rushed myself to the ER , I was there for about 4 – 5 hours the dr. says ” it looks like you have alopecia areata , you will be ok sometimes it will grow back , in some cases it all falls off in other cases it just wont…” … and she sent me on my way ;my drive home was the longest my hands shook as I was holding the steering wheel, went home and fell asleep. Monday rolled around and made a dr. appt I received the same answer from the ER dr. except this time I got blood work done, it came back normal .My dr. says that I wouldn’t need to take anything creams or any meds were unnecessary unless it got worse. Hmm…… so at that point I actually thought “F**ck IT, IT IS WHAT IT IS” I cant keep stopping to check my head every 10 min to make sure my spots are covered eh…. If it shows it shows whats the worst that can happen? People that I don’t know will stare and well that should be the least of my worries since I may never see them again anyway……… my daughter would say mom stop let me cover it , my co workers are the best they are like family they will also tell me when its visible and would cover them , I did go through a depression mode for awhile , at the time things were happening in my life that just made it worse, but now im coping I’ve accepted this …….. my motto now is “I ACCEPT THE THINGS I CAN NOT CHANGE, ACCEPT THE THINGS I HAVE NO CONTROL OF”. I live my days one day at a time I thank God for the life he has given me and the people in my life who accept the changes in my life. This has made me a stronger person and learned not to take life too seriously.