It's hard to believe that it's almost been a year since I shaved my head. This time last year I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror, I was having anxiety attacks every time I took a shower or worked out because my hair was coming out in handfuls. I was fortunate enough to have a couple of friends that I told what was happening and they were a great support system they both offered to shave my head. When I did shave my head I felt better in that I felt like I was taking some control over an uncontrollable situation. I still don't go out or answer the door without anything on my head usually a wig. I went wigless only a few times and I felt great doing so but I had close friends so I had people that weren't going to let anyone say anything out of the way to me.

I don't know how I feel about going about my day to day life without a wig. I live in a small town and people can be cruel, I don't want kids giving my son a hard time, and I'm hopelessly single and I am having a hard enough time dating without the extra burden of someone not wanting to date me because they see me as a someone with mostly no hair and form their opinion without knowing me. I have some wigless pictures up on my Facebook and I have had some good responses to them but I still have a fear of finally meeting someone hitting it off with them then I take my wig off and things change. I was talking to a guy a few months back and he saw Alopecia World on my Facebook was asking me about it, I told him I was bald with a little hair in the front and he seemed cool with it actually said he thought it was pretty cool but then I didn't hear much from him afterward, so I don't know if it was lack of interest or what but it was enough to fuel that little voice in the back of my head. For now I'm trying to not let it all get to me. I'm known for my bright burgundy red "hair" that everyone seems to like and my bright red convertible that I love to drive with the top down. I'm hoping that I'll be able to move to a bigger city in the next year, and hopefully I will find love and then maybe I'll feel more comfortable about going out without the wig,hat,or scarf.