I have had Aloepecia since I was 11-12yrs old, just before starting highschool (how many of you can guess how much I enjoyed highschool?)
Anyways, I've never had regrowth to the point I dont feel the need of
wearing my wigs anymore, I have woren Lcae wigs starting around the age of 15 yrs old.
I feel that because of my age of when it started that I never got a chance to enjoy life or highschool and my peers like others did. You don't realize how much lack of confidence you start to develope and how little time you want to spend outdoors, afraid your wig mig fall, or the heavy winds during winter some how messes up the do and holes start showin that your wearing a wig.
I've been through and tolerated such horrible relationships with men, that I believe if I had more confidence wouldn't even get the chance to do or hurt me the way they have.
I've been abused, physically, verbally, blatantly lied too with regards to minor things and major things, cheating being one of the many...
I feel lost as a 28yr old now, living on my own and working 2 jobs.
And have no hope or future, in ever finding someone who appreciates me or loves me like I would.
I can't talk to my family they are not understanding, or hear me when I talk....that's probably another factor in my feeling of seclusion.
I have never told anyone outside of my family that didn't already know that I have this condition, And I honestly believe because I feel like I cannot trust anyone to understand or be accepting that I will forever
keep it to myself, I have never disclosed my conditions to my past boyfriends, even one being my live in boyfriend....Sleeping with a lace wig is costly and annoying....(sidenote).
I feel depressed and alone, and I feel like this is a burden to my life...
And wonder what I did to deserve something as such. I know there are worse things in life to have, but I didn't sign up for depression and loneliness on top of the hair loss, with no hope or signs of change...
Sincerely,
One Lonely person...