Spent a good part of yesterday telling a few trusted friends and family members what’s going on with my hair and what I’m planning to do. I already knew I’d be able to rally up a nice circle of support. The challenge now is just doing the deed. This is when the fear and apprehension comes in. One of my friends offered to do it for me. Not sure if I want her to do so, just be there for support, or just do it alone.
I also spent a good part of the evening reading about others’ journeys. There are some very courageous, beautiful, and inspirational on this site.
So many thoughts run through my mind. Just do it! However, I’m speaking tomorrow. Do I want to make my bald debut when I really want people paying attention to my message, not my head? Then, I have a wedding to attend in a couple weeks. Do I want to show up at a wedding bald? Get a wig! No, I don’t want to wear a wig! I’ll do it after the wedding. I’m going on a retreat the following weekend. I’ll do it right before the retreat. I can do it during the retreat. Darn! My nieces are graduating in June. I’ll do it after graduation. No, I’ll do it now and just wear a wig on special occasions. What about work? Even though I work from home, I do have to go into the office from time to time. Get a wig! No, I don’t want to wear a wig! I’ll just wear a wig on special occasions. Ugh!
Tonight I’m buying a pair of clippers, shave cream, and some type of moisturizer for my scalp. I’m going to take a few pictures and see where this all takes me. Even if I do not shave my head this weekend, I’m going to take these baby steps. This is my journey and I can walk at my own pace.