It's been a long time since my last visit here, and a long time since my last blog post. A lot of other things have kept me very busy; my study at uni (which I am almost done with already), work, projects, friends and moving to Sydney and back.

In my last blog post back in 2011 I mentioned that my bald spots were returning again which could be confronting at times in a society and age where everybody is focused on looks. Fortunately, after a while my hair started growing back again and I had my full-haired head back again. Basically since that time it has gone pretty well, not much hair loss and no bald spots, awesome times. Don't know why it didn't fall out, maybe it has something to do with my state of mind or allergies for certain products..? No idea.

This has changed now though, for the first time in about two years my hair started falling out again. It started with a small bald spot on the upper-left top of my head. That was an indication for me to start preparing -mentally- for another period of walking around with bald spots. And that feeling was right. After this bald spot, my hair on the left-side of my head started falling out very gradually last summer (september 2013). At first it wasn't clearly visible, but when it started it went very fast. Maybe some of you recognize this?

So now the left side of my head is missing quite some hair, creating a big round bald spot. Quite a shame, since I decided to start growing my hair long enough to be able to donate it in order to help someone get a wig. Since I wore a wig when I was 17 as well, I want to do something back as I know that it sucks to be completely bald at a young age.

Nevertheless I am going to keep growing my hair as I see it as a sort of 'F... you' to alopecia because I really CAN grow hair, so I am going to. My hair is now long enough to put it in a small bun. By doing so, my bald spot is clearly visible. It is something getting used to -mentally- as you do see people watching, which is quite obvious as most people are not used to it. I am grateful that I had the luxury of having a full head of hair the last two years. Because of this I might have forgotten what it is like to walk around with bald spots and having to deal with it every day again and again.

Unfortunately there is nothing that I can do about it (I could try some therapies again but I am not going to. Natural is the way to go I think.) so I am trying to see it as something positive. Positive in the sense that it makes me mentally stronger every so slightly, which might come in handy for anything else I might run into further in life.

I'm not going to let a couple of bald spots throw me off, I keep fighting it and accepting it because I think both might be equally important! Keep it strong :)