Well, I spent the whole Thanksgiving weekend from Friday night onward in bed with a migraine and scalp pain that has just been excruciatingly out of this world and left me totally incapacitated. I was going to wait until after the holidays to talk to Todd about cutting off all my hair again, because that has been the only way I have been able to control both the scalp pain and the migraines, but this weekend left me no other choice but to bring it up. The moment I mentioned it to him, Todd said to cut it all off. He says he would rather see me bald and pain-free than have a head full of hair and be incapacitated because I'm in so much pain from it. I told him that if it were just a simple matter of scalp pain I could grit and bear it, but he doesn't even want me to become dependent on Tylenol or Aleve just to satisfy his desire to see me with hair on my head.

I know that he's disappointed about having to cut it off, but he's made it clear that he would rather see me bald and bouncing off the walls like I usually do than have a head full of hair and be debilitated by excruciating migraines and scalp pain. He's acknowledged the effort that i made for him, and we are going to work together going forward to help him adjust to the bald me. I know that this is going to require some compromising on my part too -- like wearing scarves again in public (which I don't mind doing anyway; I just need to get some more colors LOL) and being open to how he really feels. We've been through too much together over the last 5 years IMHO to let AA come between us now -- and I'm not letting him go without a fight, hair or no hair!

My family and friends here are 200% behind me on this -- in fact, as overprotective as they have always been, I think deep down they want it to be an issue so they can all gang up on him (as if they haven't done that already, lol). I guess we'll just have to take it one day at a time, won't we?

Todd is still saying all the right things, and I want so much to believe him when he tells me he won't love me any less because I cut off all my hair again, but past experience tells me to be extremely wary of what he says and what he does. I wish I could get past that, but I just can't -- and I love him too much to go through the agony of another break-up with him because of this. How do I get past this??