Well hey everyone it's been a while hasn't it? Been busy here at home, two of my sisters have had babies so I now have three new baby nieces. All are the cutest little things and have THE reddest hair you have ever seen, well not the youngest one she is still working on growing some lol, and its so curly too. I have been working hard too but it does have its moments as all jobs do working me to the bone I tell you. 

I have been a bit sad of late, a lot of people have been asking if I'm going through cancer treatments and then not listening when I tell them that no I don't have cancer I have Alopecia Universalis. It almost makes me feel like they are saying that I should have had it instead so its easier on them. Yet they pay no mind on how it makes me feel and how it hurts that they are so insensitive to me. I try to make jokes about it and all that because if you can't laugh at yourself what can you laugh at you know?

Though I sometimes feel like I'm the only one in the world with Alopecia because no one around where I live has it and has no idea what I am going and have been going through my whole life. It's hard to talk about it because of that to my family they say they understand how I must feel but they really don't. The way people stare at me like I'm something to pity and feel sorry for. It's almost like I'm not a person to them I'm just a girl with a bald head. I even had someone ask me to wear a wig to their wedding so I wouldn't make the other guest uncomfortable. 

I try to keep a smile on my face and do my best to put smiles on  other peoples faces to make myself feel somewhat normal. It only works for so long before the sadness comes back. I know I have to be strong and keep moving forward as my mom always says "It never gets better, It only gets a little less different each day."    

Well everyone I thinks that's enough for one day (or should I say night because I am writing this at 11:37pm lol).