Comment by Marie on January 8, 2010 at 12:07am

I am so moved. You have described your feelings powerfully. After reading your words, I can almost feel the pain. I'm sorry you are so wounded by this. Since, my hair just continually got worse, I have never considered how it would feel to have your hair back, then potentially taken away again. I think anger, fear, and disappointment would certainly be what I'd feel. I don't know you, but I wish I could take those feelings away. Hang on, Baby. Maybe you can't share this with the people around you, but you can definitely share it here with us at Alopecia World. And, just maybe, you are underestimating the people who love you. Maybe they could understand how you feel, how vulnerable and sad you are, and you wouldn't have to keep it all inside. Then they could put their arms around you and let you know that somehow everything was going to be all right. I'm pretty sure all of us here would do that if we could. In lieu of that, I will instead hold you in my mind all day tomorrow with healing thoughts. You seem like a brave and beautiful girl.

Comment by rez namra on January 8, 2010 at 11:16am

I am going through exact same situation, loosing hairs every where above my neck, i feel like i have a metallic ball in my heart, makes me really sad and disappointed, i feel like crying all the time and feel like suicidal at times. I feel like life is lsipping out of my hands, its a constant pain and stay with me all the time. I feel bad for saying all this to a person who is already depressed, but i can't seem to help my self. I hope you find peace and health and so do i and every body else.

Comment by Jennifer Krahn on January 8, 2010 at 4:39pm

Honestly, I think you are more than a superstar. You understand yourself and emotions so well and have the bravery to share them with us. I think you empower people still under these really tough and unfair times. I'm AU now and still hope for hair and whether you know it or not, I read these stories and it helps me prepare for the future of this condition. You will be influential and great regardless of the stage in hair growth, pain, remorse, or acceptance...whatever. I think your sharing yourself right now is more than courageous, and it helps. I'm sorry this is happening again to you and I understand your emotions. That's all I can say...you're still beautiful regardless of anything. More than that...you're still helping others, like myself.

Comment by Brittany Peterson on January 8, 2010 at 8:45pm

i just wanted to say thank you all for all you love and support i dont think there are people any more compassionate or caring as "our group of people" some of us are happy, sad, at peace, or even frustrated, but we all care, and we never just think about ourselves. marie thank you so much for your support and reaching out to me even though im a complete stranger, after reading your post i cried a little and then woke up the next morning and talked to my mom and your right, she rapped her arms emotionally around me and said i am so sorry, and please tell me when you feel this way. she is the most amazing women that i know. and you will be in my thoughts, im so glad youve found acceptence and strength through these rough times, i admire you.
and jen thank you for helping me realise my emotions are part of me but who i am will always shine through. past my depression and emotions. I hope you are right i hope i will grow and influence others and show the world the pain, and blessings through everyones diseases, not just alopecia. I want to show people even though my pain may show directly through my appearences, there are others hurting inside. I pray to God that you all can show others, what you have shown me. If there is one thing i could ask of people on Alopecia world its to show the world all the kindness and love that has come from this disease, and show then who "we" are.

Comment by Joy on January 8, 2010 at 8:52pm

Brittany...you are wise beyond your years girl!! you are articulate and very connected to your feelings and thats amazing. your determination will get you through although i can relate to the pain but together we can get through anything. your personality very much shines..i dont know you but i know you are a beautiful person just by reading your words and the world needs more beautiful people like you. when you're down we are here and when you are up we celebrate with you. i will keep you in my prayers brittany. keep shining!

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