hi .. i also want to lighten my heart with all of you....

i have very small family n frnd cirle ..... i have only my mother as only family member to talk , no sister n brother, n no discussion with father..he just want me to talk only "important things" ....... i have 3,4 four good frnds(no girlfrnd). ...

i saw many alopecians seems to enjoying their lives very well ..... i have accepted the condiiton .... when i am outside my home ... like in office ...i m normal ... well not very energetic , but just ok with collegues , i also go out n enjoy sometimes........
when i came back to home .... i feel the same mental stress and deadly depression that i faced when i was struggling to accept "me" for whole life ..... in home i just feel like i want to suicide .. i cant live with alopecia even for a day ..... my mind really stops me to go out and become social and relax ....i cant control myself its just became a daily kind of thing ...... i developed a kind of social phobia

i did no psychatrists and councelling for alopecia with professionals till yet because seriously in india society really hates them n everybody thinks psychatrists are only for "psychic" .....
i really want to ask .... how u guys be happy and social ....

ya 1 more thing ......i m also continuing that same homeopathy that gave me white small hair n still hoping to get them back ........... may be this is disturbing me but i cant loose hope