It's been a long while since I've been on here last.
I just find myself on here when I need to talk about something no one else could understand. Now a days I've been writing in a journal but sometimes I wish I could get a response to what I write in it.
So I came back here. Here is the most comfortable place, the place I can be who I really am and people understand me. Dealing with this for such a long period of time you figure I'd be use to this by now. I mean I am but there are days where I just wanna bawl my eyes out. I really wanna be who I am, show who I really am, but I get so scared.
Lately I've been letting people know that I have this condition. They don't seem to care, they're all nice. I wish high school was like that. Maybe I wouldn't be as scared as I am now. I wish I could re-live my high school years and be comfortable showing and letting people know I have Alopeica.
It's whatever though I'm more comfortable with the older adults in my school now because they are mature and they don't judge. I think that was the problem with high school everyone was so immature and I was already matured. If that makes any sense at all.
Since I started college I was slowly coming out of my "shell" and now 7 months into the massage program I'm finally comfortable with letting people know. I mean there are still days where I don't wanna tell anyone.
I hope that one day I could be so comfortable that I can be like the other girls I see that don't wear hair wigs or cover up and stuff. I just continue to patiently wait for the day where my hair would grow back and stay even if it's short I just want my real hair back. Well I hope everyone's life is happy and healthy :D Have a good morning/day/night haha