My name is Jennifer and I've been dealing with AA on my own for about 7 years now. Not because I've had to be on my own but because I've chosen to. I am surrounded by family and friends that love me dearly but as much as they sympathize they can never understand. All my life I had gorgeous, thick, long hair and suddenly after tremendous heartbreak it started falling out (or jumping off)! On December 22, 2001 I found out my dad had cancer and sadly on December 24, 2001 he was gone. A week later a huge patch of my hair was gone too. Dealing with the sudden loss of my father was very hard and emotional for me so I just knew that once I went through my grieving process my hair would come back. I couldn't have been more wrong. Now here I am almost 8 years later and it's not coming back. I still miss my dad but I can no longer hold on to the hope that my hair is coming back. Now at 35 I have to deal with this. I'm so angry at myself and ashamed of myself. How can I be so vain. I know that as a woman hair is really important but why is it so important to me that I can't accept the fact that it's gone? I'm so tired of hearing don't worry your still beautiful. I don't feel beautiful. Why can't I stop wishing that I'll wake up one morning and this hair loss will have just been a bad dream? I would love to have the confidence to go to work one day without my wig and not be embarrased! I'm tired of worrying about my wig blowing off in a strong wind or someone pulling my hair not knowing that it's a wig! The first time I ever put a wig on I felt like Norman Bates seriously! I've always been the comedian of the group and really have approached my hair loss with laughter on the outside, but I think I can be honest here. I hope I can! I've just decided to purchase my first full lace wig that I plan to apply with adhesive for a longer stay since I'm kinda tired of taking the piece off everyday! I'm glad to be here and happy to finally have a place I can truly be me....Bald (fuzzy) and all!