There are a lot of things I thought were just my "issues" before coming onto this site. For instance, wearing unbearably hot, uncomfortable wigs in the middle of summer, sweating out from under them to maintain the anonymity the wig provides. Sometimes I find myself at the gym, doggedly tramping on the treadmill, my face tomato red and swollen, while the hair on my wig is "just so"... I mean, I look like a person flogging themselves at the gym and getting results--and that is the goal, right? But I'm basically wearing a sheath of plastic on my head, that doesn't breathe, doesn't allow sweat to escape, and is basically suffocating my scalp even as I'm pressing the rest of my body further and further. And I get resentful, sometimes, when I look at myself after a serious work out, because my head seems fake to me. I'm dripping sweat, I'm dehydrated, and the wig is still back in a tight pony tail, bouncing, totally disaffected by the state of my body. And because the sweat comes out from under it, my whole head is blazing and sweating and dripping--and the hair is perfect. Dry. Organized. But I keep wearing the wig to the gym. Because I like getting ready to go, and pulling my hair back into a tight pony-tail, and bobby pinning my bangs up out of my face. I like the "gym-ready" hair. It makes me feel active, it is like a costume, something that will motivate and encourage me. Forget about the fact that having 1/4" of plastic on your head basically negates the scalp's functionality in expressing heat. I look cute, at least I'm making an effort to go to the gym, and really, heat-exhaustion is for the meek and mild, right?
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