Hi Everyone,
I would like to start out by saying that I wish I knew how to do all the things on this pc that everyone else is doing but I have only just started useing a computer so far I have been able to get emails and open them and can write an email back and thats all till a few days ago when I wrote in the search bar what is alopecia and this site came up I clicked on it read one post after the next all my out doctor told me is I have alopeica and there is nothing you can do about it your hair is gone and will not come back and there is no cure so this is your life from now on kiddo I left dazed and still had no answers I had been with this doctor for 15 years and then got really sick in fact had been really sick for 2 years I knew if I didn't do something I would not be aroung long so I found another doctor my first visit he sent me to the hospital never sent me home told my husband not to stop anywhere just get me to the hospital he did and they were waitting for us and put me in a room right away doped me up till I didn't really know what was going on and started on many tests they found what they were looking for but never told me till it was done and ove I was in ten days that go had surgery the secound day and was in a total of 10 days that time feels like that's where I spent the last 20 years the hospital one surgery after another till I told my new doctor he would laugh at me for saying this but I told him I didn't much care what he did to me but I would not have surgery again he said ok I believe you but if it would save your life would you want it I said only if I would be bed ridden and could no longer do for myself then I might he smiled a very kind smile he calls me kid and says I like your spunk I put my head down and then looked him in the eyes and said I get that from my Dad he looked at my face and then touched my scarf that is when I went stiff he said is it ok if I have a look guess it was the way he asked he started taking my scarf off I just sat I couldn't move or talk and his eyes were so kind he lifted my face with his finger under my chin he said you know hair is just that hair because you don't have any so what he said you are such a pretty woman you could stop any man in his tracks I looked againg at his eyes to see if I could catch a lie in them but all I seen was a doctor with kindness and careing in his eyes for me when I started to cry he handed me a soft papertown he said he keeps for only his best clients that made me laugh and he said your going to be ok he said your still griveing you know and then said if someone told me it's time to move on he said they don't have a clue what you have been through in your life and I should get away as fast as I can because he has seen people from all walks of life and most don't know themself how they would handel a loss let alone two now do they know what you have been through in your life and that day he gave me back so of the power I lost so now I am taking it slow one day at a time and if I think I can do something I do if I don't I want because I know the time is coming when I again will be my old self again.
I think all of you here have stories about you life before and after alopecia and even if you don't see it your self an outsider does it changes you some for the Good some for the bad but we are all touched by this ans it's nice for me because I am learning I didn't know there were other people like me I thought it was just me and how alone I felt when I came across this I cried when I seen how many people have this.
Thanks for letting me be apart of this.