Hi,
First, I have to make clear that I might spell alot of words wrong....so dont mind my grammar, please :-).
Yesterday I told a good friend of mine how I have been feeling the couple of weeks. Lately I have been feeling insecure about mine alopecia areata. I say its mine alopecia areata, because for a while I have been feeling like I am the only one with this disease. I have read stories, blogs and bio's of people on this website. It gave me so much comfort that I am not the only one...dealing with this.
In mine personal life, I dont know how to talk to others about the disease. Although I am bald for 5 years. And wearing a wig for the same time, I rather aviod the subjects...:hair, baldness, wigs, going to the hairdresser. I shut down when does kind of subjects come along. You might understand that because of me hiding the "the real me", I cant be myself. In general I dont like to talk about personal stuff. I always have been like....I can deal with it on my own, I dont need help or support.
Now I came to a point that I cant deal with it anymore. I told my sister. She doesnt really know how to deal with me. She tries to be supportive, but she doesnt really know how I feel. I love her offcourse. She was the one who went with me, to buy my first wig. So she really wants to help me. But dealing with my feelings.....I never told her I guess.
So yesterday I told a friend. For the first time in 5 years, I told her how I felt. (it was trough facebook, but I did told her). I told her how insecure I feel. How ugly I think I am when I look in the mirror sometimes. I told her, that I dont think I will ever get a boyfriend....because I am bald. You can imagine how negative I feel about myself. I dont really know if it is because of the alopecia. I was wondering if any of you went trough this kind of fase?
How did you get trough it? Maybe some of you can give some advice to me, about how to deal with fase I am in now.....
Thanks in advance.
Xo
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