I truly believe I will never have hair and it is OK

Tonight I was sitting here, reading some other posts by people, talking about differnt treatments, talking about bits of hair sprouting back, talking about possibilities. And for me it is never like that, I truly don't expect my hair to ever grow back. I guess after 10 yeas I just can't see it happening. I've become so accustomed to it that I don't even think about that part. I rarely even think about the part where i don't have hair to start with.
When i first lost my hair it ll came out evenily, no spots, just thinned and thinned, and eventually we had to shave it and it was gone.. then I can't rememebr it drowing back even in spots for a few years. We did try cortisone shots right away.. with no luck since mine was so widespread then we tried a chemical that burned my scalp.. neither works, and both hurt.
I kinda gave up there.
Then when I was 18 or 19 my hair grew in patches.. some spots even got a few inches long before I shaved it off at a party with friends. Then I had to shave my head for a bit, only a few months now. I am still certain that it grew back from indoor tanning, from the uv rays supressing my immune system.
Since then.. nothing.. and it has not even occured to me that it will.
And that is ok. I will be fine. We will all be fine. At least our wigs don't have split ends eh?!

I have had a kinda crappy day today.. and am now going to urge it better. And I hope you all have a good day too. You are beautiful.
:)

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Comment by Laurie Price on August 28, 2010 at 10:04pm
Dear Erin, I do feel your hurt, I just joined this group several days ago when I was having a really bad day. Pity Party for one. It is great to write what you feel and have some one really know how you feel. Hang in there kiddo tomorrow is a new day. I like you have had AU for 10 years and this year I am going to be in charge of it not it of me. My favorite thing people say to me is "oh that must save you so much money on shampoo!" I spend more money being bald than I ever did with my own hair. In stead of the show "what not to wear" we should do one "what not to say!"
Comment by Dominique Cleopatra on August 29, 2010 at 9:53am
I've accepted that I will probably be bald for the rest of my life, but it really irks me that I still have to shave my legs, pits and those other naughty bits—not to mention those hairs on my chiny chin chin. I mean really what's up with that. Talk about having the worst of both worlds!
Comment by Mary on August 29, 2010 at 11:25am
Erin, I'm sending you positive thougths through this rough patch. After two years of being AU, I've accepted that I'll never have hair again. I certainly wish I would have a full head of hair again - but I much prefer being smooth to having patches. The only place I have any hair is my nostrils, and lower face.

Like Dominique C., it bugs me that I have hairs on my chin, and my upper lip! I don't have anything on my legs or pits or any other bits, so that's a big plus! I keep willing the lower face hair to migrate upwards to my eyebrows!
Comment by Erin on August 29, 2010 at 12:05pm
haha @Tanya.. machine washable wigs would be pretty amazing haha! And I agree about the no hair when we are old.. we will have beautiful wigs , I doubt i iwll ever get a gray one.. :)
Thanks a bunch girls :) It is nice to come on here and be reminded I am not at all the only one and that it is ok to feel down every once in a while.
Comment by Tallgirl on August 30, 2010 at 3:54pm
Me, too! If I am not in pharmacies or dermatology offices, I don't have to think of myself as needing to be fixed. The pretty wig shop with the perfect hair is a more positive visit.

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