Alopecia World
www.alopeciaworld.com
If only I had my hair
Every day i think if only???? If only i had hair
If only, would my life be different
If only, i would be treated different in this society
If only, I could have normal relationships
This constant thought of if only..... brings this aching pain that i am unable to shake
I have felt over the past few months out of it, i wish i had my hair.... i ask my mum why wont my hair grow, i ask my mum in a playful yet sad way.... and considering i am now 24..... i understand why it won't grow.
So many factors that are used up to explain why i don't have hair!!!
If i had hair I would be able to have a normal relationship with men, instead of meaningless ones which doesn't involve me telling them
I am bald, I have alopecia, this is me!
I must admit since i've been bald for now over a year i feel more confident telling people my story, but there is a sadness that is always there.... a sadness i wish would disappear
why me?
why now?
how come?
all theses hopes and dreams of leading a relative normal life have what i think vanished.
sometimes i can handle being bald, but having no eyelashes kills me sometimes :(
I am just going through a tough time with friendships, work and feeling like a belong in this world.... i am in a dark hole atm and i can't help but blame my alopecia
I want my hair back so much,
I know it seems selfish to want something like your hair back, considering i have watched people whom i love die of cancer
but right now it is my only wish
every night i go to sleep and hope for a miracle
-
Comment by Ilia Reed on November 16, 2011 at 3:14am
-
Hi, just to say hello. I wish you all the strength that you need and wonderful people who see in you what you are, not just the hair or lack thereof. Take care!
-
Comment by monica on November 17, 2011 at 3:26am
-
writing I feel is a form of therepy my dear...it's great that you can write what you feel..I've always wanted hair myself when I was younger...now that I am 44 and have had alopecia for so long..it makes so more sense to me just to be happy...I do have people that love for myself, so for that I am very thankful..I just wish this for everyone else...
-
Comment by Linda on November 17, 2011 at 10:35pm
-
well said! My heart goes out to you on your thoughts and feelings...<3 hugs
-
Comment by Tiffany Marie on November 19, 2011 at 11:18am
-
I never realized the struggles women with Alopecia undergo, and reading this almost brought tears to my eyes. I wish you the best while going through this struggle, and hope you embrace your beauty - with or without hair. Please continue to write and let your thoughts flow, you write beautifully.
-
Comment by Dominique Cleopatra on November 20, 2011 at 6:21pm
-
Natalie, you have such a beautiful face and a lovely-shaped head. If you aren't comfortable being bald, consider getting a bonded on hair system which stays on all the time like I have or a vacuum wig or something.
-
Comment by Molly on November 22, 2011 at 9:59pm
-
I know how you're feeling I'm 26 now and bald for the past year. The last guy that was interested in me thought I was a skinhead and that's why he approached me, it's disheartening to say the least that that's whose attracted to me now..
-
Comment by Kycie on November 22, 2011 at 10:34pm
-
I had not seen your blog and coincidently I started my writting with" what if' what if is a common theme with individuals experiencing trauma and loss. Now I am thinking here...,, Hair loss can be a trauma to the psyche, loss of self perceived feminine identity, loss of power to attract others
. Friends, colleagues, employers, prospective dates( male or female); sometimes the loss of a relationship partner(e.g., sexual physical, emotional, and/ or psychological. I can definately relate to your expressed pain. I admire your courage to share in such a transparent manner. Thank you, I feel less alone today.
Comment
© 2024 Created by Alopecia World.
Powered by
You need to be a member of Alopecia World to add comments!
Join Alopecia World