okay

well i grew up with mostly guy friends i guess you could say i was a "tom boy". And i don't think i wud be as strong as am today if i didnt have them at that early age. They always stuck up for me and taught me how to fight bak but i also do a bit of martial arts now anyways. We all played rugby together in the same club and it our primary school even though it was banded. i was staying at my mates daniels house every weekend since i was 6 and he wud always hav his step bros around which were a few years older then me and we'd do crazy stuff like eeling at night or possum hunting or trying to stay up the latest so we cud draw or cream each others face haha. i was going to all boys birthday parties and the girls at my school wud get quite jelous i was quite funny lol.

and when i started losing my hair the guys were quite sympethetic at the start but then we got over it and we just treated each other as normal after that. which made our friendship even stronger!!! i liked having guy friends instead of chick friends coz guy were more up front about it as chicks wud talk behind you or wen u wernt looking. i remember the day i told the guys i was losing my hair they said straight away "can we see" and i was like "sure" and showed them my patches hahaha. but wen the girls found out they were very quite but you like new as soon as you left they were talking about you, but that never bothered me coz i wasnt no lowlife who had to bitch about me.

im not that gud at showing emotion like me and my mum could be watching a movie and the next minute i look over to her and shes balling her ears out and im like whats up with you. and the other day i was playing girls soccer and this girls kicked me in the shinn and i guess it hurt for a second but i look back and there she is siting on the ground crying and im like "wait a minute you kicked me? shudnt i be the one that is hurt?''. even if i do get hurt i try so hard not to cry i guess i dont want people to think im weak. and i remember the day i got my hair shaven off it didnt really bother me but my mum was siting next to me and she was crying and said "mum u are the biggest sook i know and your not the one who s getting your hair shaved of''

and dont like it when other people cry around me it sort of makes me nervous i guess. im like "ohhhh no what have i done this time" if i think they are crying over me or if they just start randomly crying i dont know what to do, im like "ahhhhh someone over here" and once someone has arrived i leave as fast as i can. i know it sound cold and quite harsh but its true i only have an emotional capacity of a rock.... it just freaks me out

But now i hav learnt to get along with chickz now hahaha and i have a gud mixture of guy and chick friends!!!
but i still hav a emotional capacity of a rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!