surrounded with beautiful girls with beautiful hair at cosmetology school 9-5 mon-fri is an incredibly hard mental battle. As much support as they give me Im not ignorant to their initial reactions. When i open up and show my hair loss everyone makes that same face... you know the one. Its a mix between shock, concern and disgust. I get it.. i do, it's not common for a perfectly healthy 21 year old girl to just wake up one day with bald spots. I dont feel pretty when i have to pull my hair up in a pony everyday to hide my bald spots. Especially in the industry that I am in. I Love doing hair always have. You could say my aunt was my inspiration. She has her own personal salon and she has such a wonderful soul and spirit.
As much as I love doing hair, some days its hard. I always get clients going through cancer treatments that need their hair cut off because the receptionist seems to think my hair loss and theirs go hand in hand. Truth is it only makes me feel guilty and I always have to fight back the tears. I am such a loving person and am incredibly empathetic. Losing your hair is nothing when you are going through cancer. For ten years of my life I watched cancer consume my cousin and my best friend growing up. We were only a month apart so we were destined to become close. He was the strongest person I know and I wish he were physically here to help guide me now but he passed in 2009 when we were 18. I know he will always be my shield and inspiration.
Sometimes we go through things that lets just say suck. Some things suck, but through those sucky things something great comes. I know. There has to be something great in store for me. Losing my hair and being a hairstylist? the irony just screams

The picture i included was my first tattoo on my 18th birthday for my cousin kasey. he was the first to see it and loved it. :)