You know the scene in the movies where the mini mes sit on your shoulders speaking in your ears????
Lately I have found that is what Im experiencing.
Its like one moment Im loving my bald look, I have a nice shaped head, and I like the smoothness. Shaving was the far better option as oppose to living like I was.
But in the very next breath, I get all sad.....I really have no hair. I will run my hands over my head and there is nothing. There really is nothing. Maybe for a little stubble in areas, just a tease of what use to be.
Its like those mini mes are sitting there on either shoulder, one saying how fabulous I am, how strong and beautiful and it was the better choice. Then that other one is saying in the other ear .. Yah but you have NO hair.

I know this is all just the stages of Alopecia and acceptance and I try not to get too upset about it.

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Comment by Tallgirl on March 9, 2011 at 7:40am
I personally wear scarf or hat for cooler days and nights at home, and wig in public. "The result of this deception is very strange to tell...for when I fool the people I fear, I fool myself as well." (The King and I)
Comment by Susan P aka DGADBS on March 9, 2011 at 7:56am
I feel the same Terri, without the Mini Me though :) I'm still trying to get used to the bald look, I convince myself that it's great having no hair to wash, shave etc. but then I look at myself and I just feel old and ugly. I wonder if I got a wig would that make me feel whole again? My hair, what was left of it, looked horrible and I felt so much better after shaving the rest of it off but I guess I expected it to grow back, that this was only temporary. I was flipping pancakes at a fund raiser yesterday when the local newspaper showed up, I kept my back to him and told him I was camera shy, I thought the next thing I don't need is my bald face in the newspaper. I guess we both need to get to the acceptance stage.
Comment by David B327 on March 9, 2011 at 2:48pm
Hey Terri, poitive vibes coming to you from across the pond. I don’t have alopecia, but I do know exactly how you feel. Of course I’m really pleased that, for the most part, you have a positive attitude to being bald. Nevertheless since it’s not something you chose, you can’t be expected to be positive about it all the time.
For myself, I passed through the “Why me?” stage a long time ago, and there were other factors that made it all the more difficult for me. Now I have come to terms with my blindness, but there are times when I just have to scream with frustration because it’s difficult (or not possible) for me to do what I could do so easily before. Most of the time I’m ok. I try to focus on the things I can do and do very well, rather than get caught up on stuff I can’t do any more. But sometimes I just wish I could turn the clock back, even if it was just a little bit.
Comment by Fotini Constantina Spero on March 11, 2011 at 9:42am
Personally, no matter how much acceptance you have, that feeling is never going to completely go away. Whenever I feel that, I just try to block out that voice because there is no use listening to the past, it is gone. Your present and your future is a strong beautiful person that has the guts to be different and not cover it up.

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