I had been bonding for 3 years and just recently noticed that when I detach/reattach I no longer have to shave the top of my head.  I always thought that one day, maybe when I retire I'd stop wearing hair and just cut my hair really short like Annie Lennox and be done with it.  I feared that maybe I have permanent hair loss on top of my head.  If it will let me post a pic I will do so but I haven't had good luck with that.  I feel like such a freak.  I think I'd rather be all bald that what I look like now without hair.  Anyway, I've been attaching my hairpiece with tape and taking it off at night.  Using rogaine, taking hair vitamins, nioxin shampoo--you all know the drill.  And nothing is happening! Nothing.  OMG-if I go one day without shaving my legs I have serious growth.  How ironic is that?!  I've been grieving the loss of my hair.  I am coming to terms with the fact that I no longer have thin hair or thinning hair.  I'm bald. I've been slowly losing it for almost 20 years now.  Today at work my hairpiece spontaneously loosened in one spot up front.  You could have stuck your finger in there.  Thank God I was alone.  I pushed it down but stressed about it all day.  I got home and glued the piece back on my head.  This weekend I am meeting with someone about a follea gripper full wig.  Maybe it will better to be all bald rather than half bald.  I've seen some really beautiful bald women on this site.  I tried to talk to my best friend about it but she just doesn't get it.  She has gorgeous thick black hair-the kind of hair I have in my "hair dreams".  Any of you have "hair dreams", dreams where your hair is back or you have the hair you always wanted? She tried to console me by saying isn't it great that you get to pick the hair you want-blah blah blah.  then she started to complain about her hair!  I had to bite my lip to keep from crying.  I told her I would give everything I own to have my own hair back.  That I'd subtract 20 years from my life.  She just doesn't get it.  She can't help it.  But I bet some of you out there do get it.  Some of you know exactly how I feel.  That's why I decided to post. thanks for listening