Gosh I don't even know where to start. Crying won't do anything so I may as well just start with the facts.

29, AA, currently experiencing my 3rd AA outbreak... My first was in 2009; patches in the back & sides. 2011 small patches in the front, 2014 shedding mostly from my fringe, crown @ receding from my temple area.

I've been emotional, but pragmatic.

I've created a spreadsheet of my blood work over the last 7 years. Interestingly I can find correlation between incredibly low Vit D & B12 and my AA outbreaks.

That said, like many my AA seems to have no other visible triggers (eg: diet, emotional, medication, diet). Stress is part of my life (and my job) but again, there has been no correlation recently.

I'm not coping so well.

I'm doing the typical stuff...tears in the shower when my hair is all over the walls.

...I'm avoiding washing my hair purely because of the trauma of then having to "confront it". I'm so sick of my hair being...everywhere.

I'm taking vitamin; trying hair loss tonics, B12 injections, high dosage oral Vit D.

Booked in for cortisone treatment (injections) again; though this was only effective during my first bout, when I was living in the USA. It appears in Australia the FBA don't allow such high/strong cortisone doses.

I'm trying to change my diet; I'm vegetarian (Always have been. Typically healthy diet). But I've read about gluten & diary effects of hair loss.

Oh & I'm changing my oral contraceptive as i e read research that suggests Levongestual has common side effects of hair loss.

So. That's a tiny part of me.

I'm fluctuating between sinking & drowning. In reality, as logical as I am. As pragmatic as I'm being... I'm not the first to be on this journey. I'm not unique in my experience. But my hair keeps falling out; and being anything but vain seems too much to ask at the moment.