I am so sick and tired of being depressed. I have had Alopecia Universalis of 11 years now and I am still morning the loss of the old person I used to be. I was finally coming to terms about being bald and my neice had an alopecia scare. She woke up with a huge bald spot on the top of her head. My brother and sister in law were mortified. Everyone was so worried. They took her to Texas childrens hospital to see the dermatologist and they said it was a scalp infection. I was so happy to hear that my neice would not be going through what I have been threw, but at the same time it re openend so many doors I had closed. Now, not only do think about my hair alot, alot again, I am now terrified that my children will have it. I could not imagine my little girl or boy going though everything I have been threw with this disease. I just want to have a normal fricken train of thought. I want to wake up and the morning and feel amazing. I have no idea how to get there.