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The waiting game
It is really easy for people to say, "It's only your hair" and it's easy for them to laugh about my situation. But it isn't easy for me. This is an entire life adjustment. Not once, could I ever have imagined that one small spot would completely change my life and become three large patches. If I thought I had worries before, well I obviously didn’t think things could get worse. It’s only now that I am beginning to appreciate my silly little life worries more now. Throw them at me; just give me back my hair, please… and my sanity. I am just a nervous wreck… waiting for all of it to fall out. Waiting to wake up with nothing. Waiting to find another spot.
I really should stop being so selfish and be grateful that I have all my organs (though, not all in working order), two arms, two legs, I can hear, I can eat, I can see… but right now, it’s not easy.
Breath, it’s just a bad day… it’s not a bad life. This is how life works, right?
If we didn’t struggle to live, what kind of life would that be?
I’m just going to keep telling myself that, I think it helps.
I know it does get better though. But I can’t help but think... well when? When is enough, enough?
And why can’t I be as strong as all you wonderful people?
Reading about the people on Alopecia World and all your stories has helped me somewhat. I know I am not alone… and it could be a lot worse.
But I still cannot come to terms with, “WHY ME?”
How long will this feeling last?
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Comment by lynne on May 16, 2012 at 6:06pm
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Hello i totally understand what ur going thro and im afraid the feeling last until u can accept it. i lost my hair 3yrs ago and it all came bak last yr but falling out again :( I hate it and dont ever want to accept it. I thought that was it for me once it all came back last yr but nope its happeing again and it doesnt make it any easier being the 2nd time round. im sorry ur feeling so down at the moment but u are defo not alone and there are people on here 24hrs if u need someone to talk to :) I dont have any good answers for you but am here to listen when u need it xx
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Comment by You can do it : ) on May 16, 2012 at 7:13pm
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Wow, I totally get u. These feelings are always inside you but will only occasionally overtake you and make you feel weak. That is why you have us and this site because we understand every single emotion you are going through.
Good luck, Keep holding on.
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Comment by Denise on May 16, 2012 at 7:28pm
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oh i so agree. its like you took me back to my childhood, and to my current life..i relate and empathize. i am so thankful to have found this website. good luck, keep holdin on as You can do it :) said...
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Thank you everyone! It's nice to come home to comments like this after a day of struggling. You guys are honestly amazing. :)
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So are you Jamiee :) x
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Comment by mmmm on May 20, 2012 at 7:04pm
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I can understand what you are going through Jaimee. I don't know how many times I asked myself "why me" when looking at the mirror. I have now stopped asking that questions because I could never get any right answer anyway. All I did was that accepting myself of who I was and go on with life, and focus on the positive things. I hope you will feel better one day!
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