then again... where was I when they needed me?

Throughout the years many people came in and out of my life;
I called them my friends... some I called my Best Friends.

Forever we promised each other...

BFF!

Remember?

I do

We wrote it every where, we hollared it, we screamed it... we even cried!
We climbed high places, we hid in small places...
We did so many funny and crazy things,

We did things we wished we never did...
We said "Never again..." while trying not to laugh

We got into trouble together...
We fought all who tried to split us up,

and yet...

in the end...

If I knew back then, that forever wasn't gonna last long...
I would've held on to you a little longer :(

A friend indeed, yes you were...
In my heart, deep down I will never forget!

A friend in need... with a broken heart
who can't seem to let go :(

As the days and years went by...
we all grew apart, went our own separate ways,
forgetting all the promises that we've made :(

Maybe; just maybe you are thinking of me...
like the way I am missing you right now

In my dreams... you are just right there
I can see you smile, trying to say something to me...

What is it?

Please Dear Lord;

Watch over my friends tonight and all the tomorrow's to come...
As they are walking and they feel a gentle breeze,
let them know... I have blown them a little kiss
that little rain drop that falls gently on their shoulder,
I pray they know how much I am missing them.
For I will never forget...

All that I am going through today;
I try think nothing of it ALOPECIA!

It's hard not to at times...
Especially when people treat you
like you have some kind of
deadly contagious disease
or something...

I am trying to be brave,
then I see the look in their eyes :(
the sadness like I am dying or something.

But what should it matter...
let them think what they want;

I am here to live my life to the fullest;
Like I have always done before all this!

I am tired of crying...
being scared...
feeling all alone...

Man! that is easier said than done :(

"You need to come to terms with it" my doctors says

How????

When I have no friends for support...
My family is really trying hard to understand;
But I can see it in their eyes too!

I feel sorry for them; more than I do myself...

I am ok! I say...

But am I really?????

ask me tomorrow...

tomorrow is another day!