How do I accept my hair loss as ALL MY FAULT?

I am coming to terms that I did not address my hair loss and now it's too late to do anything but wear a wig. I ignored my health care and am obese. I tried dieting but always yoyo up and down. Didn't get regular physicals and now I ruined my life. In the last 2 years, lost so much of my hair (and so much more in the last 12 months) I couldn't see it, face it and now I am wearing a full wig. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT, no one to blame but me. How am I going to live with myself? Could I have prevented my hair loss? Or would I ended up balding anyway, just a few years later then now? I am so ashamed of myself and wonder how am I going to accept that I did this to myself. Why did I not love myself enough to address my baldness?

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Permalink Reply by Figarosmom on October 16, 2013 at 2:01pm

Well Purple

I too have not been on here in a while but your post called to me as well. You certainly didn't do this to yourself. No way! Actually physicians would be hard pressed to tell you the true reason why your hair is thinning. I have 3 different diagnosis and well I just let go of a diagnosis, We just don't have the science yet to truly know what is going on, especially when it comes to women and hair loss.

I saw that your physician suggested Rogaine and I say good for you for doing it. In fact, after reading your post, I pulled out my languishing bottle and decided enough was enough! I am giving it a try! So you are already an inspiration. We are partners in Rogaine!

Feel free to write me and tell me how things are going. You are not alone. Be proud of yourself for tacking steps towards health. Your life is not ruined. In fact it is now in rebirth!

lots of love to you!
Figarosmom

Permalink Reply by purplemainst on October 16, 2013 at 7:41pm

Hi Figarosmom,

Thank you for your message. Your words have giving me such encouragement and now I am even more prepared for my derm appt tomorrow. I fully expect the usual treatment, yea, make your peace with being bald course you are going to be, thanks and don't forget to pay your bill on the way out. I am sure that is going to put me into another emotional tailspin (yea! looking forward to that) I have been second guessing on the Rogaine decision, but am continuing with it. From what I have read it's an all or nothing deal, so since I started it, I am going to follow through and then at least I will know if it helped or not. Right now I feel the hair lose is MUCH worse since I started it, but as I said, I will follow through so I never wonder what might have been.

Also went to a Homeopathic doctor who suggested Wheat Free/Dairy Free diet. He said the hair loss is a symptom of something else. Starting Thyroid Support and adrenal support supplements and from the research I did about Wheat Free/Dairy Free lifestyle, there could be something to it. So, for now, I am a bald women in the front and crown of my head. Wearing wide head bands to cover it and from the reaction of colleagues, seems I can pull this look off. If the Rogaine or new diet saves me from losing the rest of my hair, then I guess I will be have to make my peace with that.

You are right, this is a rebirth. Hating have to go through it but there is a reason for everything. Lots of love back to you too! Will keep you updated on the developments and please also feel free to let me know how things are going for you.

Big hugs
Purplemainst

Permalink Reply by janeybugs on October 17, 2013 at 11:54am

Purplemainst, I am sooooo proud of you. You have made such progress emotionally. Not that it is easy, but you are an inspiration to me right now. Keep us posted on your success with the Rogaine. I for one am very interested. I think all of us are.

Permalink Reply by purplemainst on October 18, 2013 at 6:48am

Hi Janeybugs and all,

Thanks for checking in with me. Emotional progress, I don't know. But I am further down the road of my journey. Went to another derm yesterday. She was good. She feels I have Frontal Fibrosing Alopecia and took a scalp biopsy for LPP. Now the wait for confirmation. Already have scarring, so those follicles are gone. Hoping if this is the diagnosis, I can save some follicles and get some hair growing again. For now, she said stop the Rogaine until the blood work and scalp biopsy results are in.

Now, on to researching FFA and LPP and of course, saying some prayers.

Thinking of you all!

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