I am so tired. I don't have the energy to do anything. Don't want to see anyone, I want to break all the mirrors in my house so I don't have to see my face. The person I see in the mirror is not me, that is not the Carol I know. I want to see my black, thick, beautiful hair again. I am very desparate. I have a wig, although people tell me it looks very natural, but to me, this is not my hair. I am still not in the acceptance stage of this conditon. Lately, I have been noticing my eyelashes are coming out too. My eyelashes..SIGH.I LOVE my eyelashes, they make my eyes beautiful. I had this condition for 2 months already, I have lost about 70% of my hair, I am seeing my scalp. I feel so ugly, so worthless. I have have corticosteriods in my head for about 6 weeks already, all I see are FUZZ. VERY VERY VERY VERY thin short hair. Will this thin hair return to their regular size? If anyone has regrowth with alopecia totalis, how long does it stay? How long does it take to see REAL regrowth of hair? Half a year? One year? Some days are better than other, sometimes I think it is JUST hair and at least I can still do everything I am still able to do. Other days, when the weather is nice, I would like to dress nice and go out with my boyfriend, but with my hair, I am always in hats. I am so tired, my life now is seeing so many doctors, I have tried chinese medicine, but it doesn't seem to work. Can someone please help me? I am really depressed.