I'm very depressed about my appearance..

I honestly don't think people even care about how bad alopecia has affected my life. It's so hard to even pull myself out of the house to do things anymore. Something as simple as going for a run or jogging outdoors has me second guessing myself because I'm constantly thinking what people may say if they were to see my condition. My outlet or coping mechanism is definitely exercising. Exercising makes me feel so good about myself that I hope to keep progressing and one day reach my goal physique. It really is the only thing that keeps me together. I'm alone at least half of the time, but it feels like I'm alone 100% of the time. Even when I'm with friends it's so sad because I know they have no problem fitting in, but I on the other hand may never fit in... I have thought about committing suicide so many times in the last couple of months that I can't recall a day when it hasn't crossed my mind. I just picture myself slitting my wrists or throat, and never having to deal with the pain again. My life has put me through enough pain coping with this disease from being called "penis head" by someone I thought was a really good friend to watching girls laugh at my "patchy" head...This condition has truly made me a better person, and I promise to help those with the same obstacles I have to face day in and day out in the future. Any motivational words of encouragement would be awesome, thank you for reading this.

-Ryan

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Permalink Reply by blondfrog on October 1, 2015 at 12:02am

We all hate hour appearance on here just cut those ppl out in your life, and nobody gets sympathy on here for their disease except maybe girls but us guys have it worse we are told to just suck it up and be a "man". That just has more to do with societies double standards. You shouldn't let this effect you accomplishing your goal's in life though I know how you feel when I first got AA then into AT I went through a crisis and nobody was there to support me or even pat me on the back and tell me I am here for you its okay. I have gotten pretty impatient too and don't know how long you have had this but I've had alopecia for 3 years now there could always be a new treatment that could come out and cure it. They have drugs in clincial trials as we speak it would suck if by the time you killed yourself a cure for it came out. Your not alone in this if we can handle the pain so should you.

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