OKAY i am finally fed up... i can not lie and pretend anymore...im tired of always wondering if my friends can tell that i am losing my hair or if i am wearing a wig when i wear one. and im tired of always making up lies when people ask me why my hair looks different and changing the subject as fast as i can. i got a new lace wig and i hate it!! i cut off to much of the lace and now it doesnt fit my head. and i can no longer wear my hair in a ponytail without my scalp showing. i can't afford to buy another one right now and i can not cover up my baldness anymore.My friend cooked my fiance and i dinner and when i realized that my wig (my last resort) wasnt going to work i called and told her that i was sick and couldnt make it... and then i called every friend i had that i thought might stop by the house and told them that i had a migraine and i wouldn't be up to visitors tonight. the stuff i was thinking about my life was starting to scare me because i am a very happy and go lucky person. i even thought that i would be better off dead!!! are you kidding me??? i actually thought death was better then telling people that i have to wear a wig. I should be thinking god to be alive and to not have something worse wrong with me. i know my friends will not care but i DO NOT WANT THEIR PITY. i dont want to be known as the girl that has to wear a wig and most of all i dont want people to think that my fiance could do so much better than me, that im not good enough for him. i have a little sister who is 7 and thinks the world of me and her opinion of me is the most important to me, im sure everyone knows just how honest kids that age can be! i am going to tell my friends tomorrow so i would like for everyone who reads this to share their experience please... i need all the help i can get with this....