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So today is the 2nd day without any hair on my head. Yesterday I cried often, but today I found out if I avoid the mirror and just try not to think about it. I could actually survive. I keep my head covered with a scarf. Don't know if I do it for me or others. I feel I have been sapped of my inner strength. Yet, I am being petty for I could have something far worst. It's just hair right. I am more than my hair, but I feel like I am grieving. I was told by my doctor that I have a thyroid problem, but such an extreme reaction through lots of hair was surprising. Of course I hope it grows back. However, I am also scared to go through this again if it does. My doctor says I have 50/50 chance of the hair growing back. but I don't see it. I need to move on. I am 46. I am finally at a point in life where my kids are almost out the house and my husband and I can travel. traveling is on hold because many days I don't want risk my scarf coming off. then at the same time I feel like taking it off myself. Confused, angry,sad.

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Permalink Reply by Rose Marie' on October 25, 2012 at 10:29pm

Hi

Hugs for you. I think you very much are grieving which is exactly what you are suppose to be doing. I understand this is hard but as Wise1 has said, please don't let this stop you getting on with life. Be as proactive as possible around what choices you want to make with presenting yourself, whether that be scarves, hats, wigs, or nothing at all. Find your comfort zone, find the things that make you feel good, no matter what they may be.

Hang in there this will improve.

Rosy

Permalink Reply by Emory on October 26, 2012 at 10:56am

Seeing yourself bald and accepting it takes time. I have AU and lost my hair a year and a half ago. I wear a wig out in public but walk around with a scarf/hat/nothing at home. I often look in the mirror when I'm 'naked' and I don't recognize myself. I feel like me but I don't look like me. So I make sure to keep some pictures nearby of what I truly look like (with makeup and eyelashes and a wig) to remind myself. I have a very supportive husband and a 2 year old son that remind me that its just hair. They don't see me the way I see myself. I'm the only one that cares what my reflection in the mirror is. It's completely normal to adjust to the change, and you will. It's just a matter of figuring out how you need to best deal with it.

Permalink Reply by Fay on October 26, 2012 at 6:09pm
Thank you for the support. One day at a time. Yeah, it was/is just hair. But it was mine. Emory I completely get looking in the mirror and cannot believe it is me. I think I wear a scarf because I am used to the feel of something on my head and my head is cold.

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