The last few months I haven't been able to come on to Alopecia World and I have to be totally honest but I have taken some recent blows in my self esteem which I find strange for I'm not one to let my appearance get to me I know I don't look like most people in the outside world but at the same time I always thought that when people got past the initial shock of me being bald that they saw what I felt a very attractive woman.
I guess it started when my fiance's sister came to stay with us,she found herself in some trouble and needed a place to stay. I never been around someone that couldn't stop bringing up the fact that I have no hair, most of her comments started off as innocent but annoying when you hear the same comments everyday, multiple times a day, like your so lucky that you don't have to shave.after a couple of weeks of comments harmless like that, she would still say them but add I wish I didn't have to shave but I could never handle being bald and everyone thinking that I am ugly. I quickly corrected her and said I know a lot of people who think I am pretty even with me being bald I also told her I know people who say that having hair on my head would take away from my face. She said I misunderstood her and then said "all I meant was I couldn't help but think everyone would secretly think I was ugly and make fun of me behind my back.
I couldn't believe her,here I am trying to help her get back on her feet and she's making me feel uncomfortable in my own home,I know when I leave my house I expect people to look and even stare and make comments but my home is my safe spot. I have my husband who thinks I'm beautiful and tells me everyday,I have my 15 month old son who is use to me having nothing on my head at all and thinks it's funny when I put my hair on my head.It's my safe place and she left me feeling violated. She has recently moved out but I no longer am as comfortable with myself.I feel embarressed and awkward. She told everyone she knew about me and not that it bothers me but the only reason she told them was so she could tell them about my baldness.I have no problem teaching people about Alopecia but this wasn't one of those times,it was like she did it in hopes people would think less of me or something. I wish I was stronger person and that she didn't get to me how she did.Now I don't know how to go about having Alopecia around my fiance family,she made me feel like I should hide.