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My names Tina. I just turned 18, I was diagnosed with AA when I was 17. I really just want to talk to someone who is having the same struggles as I am. Its very hard not personally knowing anyone with this. I still have some of my hair, I just wish it was all of it. I'm so embarrassed to have to wear extensions, I try not to tell anyone. I will be honest: I completely HATE alopecia. Its been hard coming to terms with. I know I will eventually feel better about it. I see people on here that can shave their heads, and go out in public completely bald and be proud of it. And I feel so selfish since I still have some hair. Some people have it so much worse than me, and I feel like I'm being a brat for hating this so much. I've seriously considered a wig because I feel as if I will eventually lose more and more of my hair there's just so many questions I have about wigs: like how easily do they fall off? Some days I'm completely fine with AA, like I'm unique and its just something God thought I could handle. But other days, I hate the way I look. I get moody, and I'm scared I will never find a husband that is okay with my condition. My boyfriend now, of a year and a half still does not know. I've devated telling him, and I've also devated just ending things so he can be with someone who has hair and not have to deal with me. Halfway through my senior year I stopped hanging out with friends, and going to a lot of social events.. I didn't even go to my senior prom because of the excessive hairloss I was experiencing. I want to come to terms with this, and be happy with my appearance. I don't want to sound like a selfish little girl. This blog was just a way for me to vent and express myself considering everyone who knows I have this: does not understand. They say 'its just hair' blahhh :( I see all these people on here with way worse conditions than me, strong as can be. And I truly hope that I can find that strength, too.

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Comment by Hana Bunny Catsumi on July 12, 2011 at 11:26pm
Hi Tina, you sound like a strong woman who has it in her to accept this fate we all seem to share. Who's to know why we were the one's chosen to inherit or develop this condition? Please try to make your peace with it. I've spent too many years feeling self-conscious and have missed out on so much that life has to offer. I started wearing a wig years ago when I got a job in a firm where I wanted to fit in and not raise eyebrows. Funny, since I have to pencil them in along with the sparse ones I still have. But, I really believe we are all our own worst critics and people will accept and love you for who you are on the inside, not how thick or what color your hair is. At 18 it's a hard burden to understand since so much of your life is starting for you now. Believe in yourself, be strong, and know that hair does not make us who we are. It's a challenge that we must take on, and to succeed is to hold your head up not let it define us. Take care and know there are many of us that completely understand your pain and confusion, try to take some comfort in knowing you are not alone. Best of everything to you, I wish you all the happiness in the world as you start your life now, after high school. And take care of yourself! What you do now actually does define whom you are to become in adulthood. Wish I'd taken that to heart when I was 18. The lesson I have learned through all my years is to not take anything or anyone for granted.
Comment by Ktownnana on July 12, 2011 at 8:59pm
Tina, I feel your pain. I have just a little hair, but I keep it shaved so that my wig will stay on. My biggest
regret is not getting a wig sooner. I would have bald spots on the top and sides of my head that I couldn't
cover and I think if I would have gotten a wig sooner, maybe no one would have noticed. They make wigs now that you can't even tell they are wigs. I waited for months before I told my boyfriend that I wore a wig and his quote was, "I wear a partial--do you feel any different about me?" It doesn't bother him one bit and I even take him to the wig shop with me to let him show me the styles that he likes. I have never and will probably never let him see me without a wig, but that is just me. When I can't look in the mirror and feel beautiful without a wig, how can I expect him to do the same? I admire all the people on here who can walk down a mall without a scarf or wig, but I would never be that confident.
You do not sound like a selfish little girl. The world today is so "hair oriented" how can we possibly feel
any differently than you feel? I think your boyfriend will understand since you have dated him so long, so dont end things so he won't have to deal with you. I think you will be pleasantly surprised when the time is right for you to tell him. I have had no problems with my wig staying on. I think because I do now shave my head they seem to stay in place a lot better. I hope this website will help you. I'm here for you whenever you want to vent or just talk about it.
Sandy

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