I have been battling my AA since high school. At one point 4 years ago I even got to the point that I shaved my head and wore a wig. It did grow back with treatment but I now find myself making the desicion once again whether or not to shave my head. I have enough hair to cover the back of my head. I wear a thick headband like a uniform. After about a year with these damn headbands I have had enough. I'm sick of pulling hairs off myself all day, the clumps in the drain and constantly making sure the headband hasn't slipped throughout the day.
So, here I am I will be 30 in October I have 2 beautfiful children, a loving and supportive husband, a job I love and then there's this bleeping AA. I have always just let it go secretly hoping it would come back I guess. I don't want to wait. In every other aspect of my life and inner being I am a strong and empowered women, but when it comes to this I feel totally helpless. I don't really know anyone else with AA/AU/AT. I have many questions and concerns.
Today I went and met with Debbi Fuller to discuss her vaccuum wigs. They sound fantastic and I know that is the way I want to go. My only intial concern was that I need to shave my head to be fitted. Then it will be 3 months till the wig arrives. So, what to do about my head for those 3 months is a concern. I had a hour ride home from her shop. . . in which time I ran through every emotion. Finally, decided that I CAN'T WAIT to shave my head again. I remember how liberating it felt last time. Things are a bit idfferent in my life this time however which rises more issues in my mind, my job does not know about my AA yet. I work with a group of very empowering and supprotive women but for some reason have not been able to find the words in the past 10 months to tell them about my AA. I have a 4 year old duaghter who sees me without my heabands but I'm worried about how me going bald would affect her.
I have been spending the afternoon searching for wigs and hats to wear in the in between time. So, I guess thats the best I can do for now- writing this makes me feel better but my mind is still racing. I need advice on hats on wigs on how to tell my job. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this :)