I guess I've kind of gotten used to the fact that I wear a wig at work but it has kind of sucked too. I had a customer with alopecia the other day but I didn't have time to say anything, had I not been wearing a wig it might have come up and I would have been able to mention it but you can't do that discreetly and quickly at the same time. Then yesterday, a girl I worked with elsewhere, came to me. I recognized her right away and she just couldn't for the life of her, remember who I was. Then I remembered, I didn't wear a wig when I worked with her. I mentioned this to her quietly then she knew exactly who I was. I'm just another Jane Doe with my wig on, without it I'm like a celebrity and everyone recognizes me.

A woman I work with has male pattern baldness, just very thin on top and I'm not too sure that she has many friends at work. I work with a lot of socialites (or preppies as I prefer) so you need to hide things like this or you're done for. Not that they would neccesarily fire your ass but they would certainly make your life a living hell until you surrendered. I feel so fake right now!!! I'm trying my absolute best to pretend I give a crap about make-up and getting drunk at parties. I try to lose myself in one of my Stephen King novels during our painstaking one hour lunch but someone always comes along and feels like I need to know their biography. People there are excellent at promoting their self-importance! I just sit there and let it in one ear and out the other - like a fart in the wind! So far there's only been one person there that I actually care to talk to. He's an older man who works in a different department and he reminds me a heck of a lot of my dad who has passed away.

Anyways, wearing the wig makes dealing with the public much easier. Wearing the wig even makes my social life at work a little more interesting. Wearing the wig takes away from ME though, I feel like a robot or a cow?! I realize that the wig should feel more like an accesory but I just can't think that way. I don't look like me, I don't feel like me and I know I don't act like me (I try to but it's hard sometimes). It's like having a duel personality and I'm awefully tired.