I wanted to share with my AW family my day today.
Today I went swimming at the leisure center for the first in 10 years !! (ever since my alopecia made me very self conscience) As I was walking into the change rooms I could feel the anxiety rising up and as I was making my way thru the showers to the pool area the anxiety was cresting high. But as I entered the water I started to calm down. The pool was very quiet, mostly seniors, as it was the middle of the afternoon. I let the water wash away the insecurities that I had. I was sporting my new swim cap and my strokes felt familiar. I felt comfortable. But then the unexpected happened. My swim cap started to shift, it was pulling upwards. Ten minutes into my laps I start fidgeting with the cap. At one point the cap pulled upward so much that it came off. I was in the deep in of the pool holding on to the sides freaking out. Seriously freaking out. At one point I tried to hold myself underwater while I tried desperately to put the cap back on. I held on to the side of the pool resting after I got the cap back on, on the brink of tears.
After awhile tho I found some inner strength and continued my swim. I stayed in the pool for another 30 minutes determined not to let my fear conquer me. After wards I went into the hottub/whirlpool where I had a delightful conversation with a senior gentleman. (still wearing my swim cap LOL) But I felt strong.


day pass = $8.50
swim cap = $11.00
badge of accomplishment = priceless