here we go again! round 2. I was in a domestically abusive relationship about 5 years ago it kicked off hair loss it was extreme stress at its worst!!! a year after the relationship ended i noticed my hair texture was changing, it felt weird so weird i would keep running my hands through it the density of it changed, it felt weak and fake then came the shedding :( i was so miserable it shed all the time i could not take it anymore i figured hey i will shave it and it will grow back. I shaved my head down to nothing, i wore a wig for about 2 years. It was hell people were commenting on my wig saying my hair looked funny all that :( some how i pulled myself through.

Then i could put my hair into a bunch of mini pony tails and i attached a hair piece, like a curly phony pony and i just bobby pinned it down everywhere to make a cute undo, my hair still shed but not that bad. Then a few years go by bam i find out I'm pregnant stress hits really bad again hair starts to shed and i know after reading up about telogen effluvium its gonna get worse after the baby and that it sure did :(........the chronic telogen effluvium (that never really stopped_ came back full force just right now 3 months after the baby. I am so sad its never been this bad. Im tired and obsessed all i do is look on the internet for a cure we can send a man to the moon but cant cure hairloss???? Looks arent everything i get that however i would like to appear normal looking. Everytime i run my hands through this weak sick diffused stringy cobwebbed feeling that i guess is my hair more and more shed i pry shed about 500 or more hairs a day, the only way to wear my hair is up in a pony tail to conceal the hair. Its making me so upset i just want to shave it. I just know its harder to conceal a wig in the summer, with the heat and i really want to work out at the gym since i just had a baby........ ovioulsy wig isn't the best idea for that is it? any thoughts? 

Its so upsetting to me i just feel like giving up on life, its like why me GOD? i don't understand what i did so bad or what kind of lesson your trying to teach me, somedays i want to just give up for good. I do feel relieved knowing there is others out there with alopecia and when it boils down to it i see some people with all their hair lost on this form and so confident and beautiful, i don't have that sort of strength to just walk around bald it just isn't me...... This is so sad and hard for me. I just want to shave my head again like i said before......

If anything i would like prays to get me throug this I'm tired of the strange looks when i wear a wig. At least  in the fall i can wear a hat or a beanie and conceal it :( 

Im not sure what I'm going to do right now. I'm resisting the urge to shave it I'm tired of picking up hairs off everything and my boyfriend getting disgusted with hair all over the house.... I guess i will let you know what i decide......

TO EVERYONE OUT THERE IS THERE ANY HOPE....

IVE HAD DERMATOLIGIST LOOK AT IT SEVERAL TESTS TYROID IRON B12 LEVELS HEAVY METAL TESTING CELICS DISEASE FOOD INTOLERANCES FOOD ALLERGIES...

EVERYTHING SEEMS NORMAL

ANYWAYS MESSAGE ME