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This is really hard for me to go thru without my husband to hold me hand. See he was turned into immigration and deported 5 months ago. I didnt start losing my hair until about 3 weeks ago. I still see him everyday on webcam and i can hear his voice thru conference call. But its not the same, I cant touch him, he cant hold me the way I need him to. He cant kiss me on my head and tell me that everything is going to be alright. All I want now is to sleep and only wake up when my passports get here and its time to leave to go to mexico. I dont know. I know I shouldnt be this way but depression is really hard to control. You know you feel a certain way and you dont want to feel like that way but you cant make it stop. I dont know what to do anymore. Since I have Fibromyalgia on top of Alopecia I am taking Ativan for the unbareable anxiety and muscle relaxers for the unbareable muscle spasms. My doc tried to put me on something for depression but they made me feel worse...more depressed. So I told her that I am not taking those anymore and I flushed them down the toilet. I know that I am just sick for my husband. I have a deep feeling that when I am with him my hair will grow back... well maybe not... but at least I wont feel so sick and lonely all the time. I just need him. I am having a hard time waiting. Its like each day that passes by I feel worse and worse. I cant take this anymore.
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Comment by Ajithkumar on May 31, 2009 at 1:27pm
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Kristen, Kristen.. my friend,
Don't be depressed. It is LIFE.
Sometimes it seems cruel. It is all.
YOu are young. very young. I'm 43. I have gone thorugh several hardships in my younger life, and it is not the end. i Have two children and a wife. but I can't have them with me all the time till because my wife is in her house and she is working there. But i just accomodate the situation. It is all. Not because that I am a man. Because i don't think as a MAN in the western sense. I am a human being. Here my age old parents are lonely, and I am with them. My real family is away, for the time being.
YThey will join me, i hope.
That is life.
Longing longing and longing........
You may believe in GOD.
You loose you hair, your brows......
It is all life.'
It has several hardships in stock for us. We are destined to survive thorough all this.
You can survive, without hair, without your eyebrows.....
keep your mind clear and believe in GOD....
YOu are beautiful- even if you are bald and without eyebrows. And may your husband br able to realise these conditions.
So Kristen, Be cheerful and face the life naked.
If you can get Bhagavat Gita( in English translation) read it.
It is humane. Or you can read Bible, it tells the same .
Scirpturs are for us, for the human beings who suffer.
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Comment by Kristen Viveros on June 1, 2009 at 6:04pm
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Thanx everyone! Y tambien gracias a Demm me gusta esta cansion gracias por mandar me la.
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