I thought I was doing ok with my great bonded on hair system and all, but the last couple of days I have been feeling worse and worse. I went to this nail place to fix a wonky nail that is probably caused by alopecia in some way for all I know, and while I was there they told me that they could fix my uneven eyelashes with their individual lash extensions, and I was so excited. I have one eye with full, long thick lashes and another one that is extremely sparse. I don't know why they took my money in the first place and I am feeling very stupid for not looking into this first. The eye that doesn't need extra lashes in the first place looked great, the other one couldn't hold the lashes and I ended up having to remove it, and it took the little baby lashes that were starting to grow in with it. Now I have one eye completely bare and one that looks normal. I have been experimenting with wearing one false eyelash to match the other one and it really is a pain in the a$$ dealing with this, and when I take it off at night I feel like a freak, an asymetrical freak!
I am also ordering a new hair system that will be half Euro hair and half biolon, which is top of the line synthetic and can be heat styled. I am very nervous about trying something different and fear that I will spend over $2,000 on something that I am unhappy with. I wear very blonde hair and the overprocessed hair can be really fragile so the biolon is supposed to make my system last longer, but I am really having a panic attack about all of this. Maybe I should just stick with ordering another system that is the same as the one I have. Alopecia is costing me a frickin fortune. I also have one normal eyebrow and one eyebrow that is sparse so it is just whack!
I am a young,fit woman and I haven't dated since I got alopecia six years ago and I have recently been thinking that I am ready to start dating again, but the thought of dating with alopecia just fills me with anxiety, maybe I am better off alone. Dating was hard enough when I had a beautiful head of hair, eyelashes and eyebrows. I just feel so depressed. It is so exhausting just trying to look normal. I am tearing up right now. I just want to thank you all for your support. I guess I'm just having a bad night!