I hate alopecia. I go from extremes, where i'm ok with it and act like it's not a big deal, to where i cry myself to sleep, hating everygthing about it. I wish i just had patches, that'd be so great. I hate losing my lashes adn brows, and i hate having to wear a wig, and i hate being bald.

I hate it so so much. I really do. It just makes me so sad and feel so revolting and i look like a freak, I feel like a freak. I hate it.

And then to make it worse, everyone else around me pities me and dishes out teh sympathy, which i dont want. I just want people to be ok and be cool and not let it phase them, but when i see them get so upset by it, and them get all "Oh you poor thing, how horrible" it makes it all worse. I just hate it so much. And my parents, you’d think they’d be really strong in a time like this, but they just get upset, and my mother keeps looking at my hairline and looking to see my eyebrows and lashes, and it all just makes me so much more self conscious about it. I really hate their attitude about it too. And I keep trying to tell my mum how it makes me feel, she goes into denial that she’s not doing it, which makes me think she has major issues anyway.

Why isn't more being done about it? why isn't someone out there looking into a cure for it? Or a treatment that actually guarantee works? I want something done adn i want to fix it and i just dont want to have alopecia anymore. I hate it. If anyone knows something that actually guaranteed to work, please let me know coz I’ll try anything. I hate being like this.

Surely someone, somewhere, is trying to find a cure????