Growing up, I had everything: friends, sports, a family, and or course, hair. Then one day life took a down spiral out of nowhere. I went from having a close family to having many relatives die, my parents go through a bitter divorce, and going into a depression in which I isolated all of my friends away from me. Then I lost my hair. I felt the end was near. I didn't know what I had, I just knew that one more thing in life was leaving me beyond my control. A few years pass, I'm a 2 sport varsity athlete, part of the Fellowship of Christian Athletes, BROS (Brothers Reaching Out Spiritually), performing in plays, organizing my high school's first intramural sports program, and for the first time, I was in love. Went on to play college football at one of the community colleges. Got engaged. Had solid relationships with my parents after they had been so tarnished for years after their divorce. All of a sudden, it all went away. My parents and I started fighting. I was kicked out of my mother's house and my father wouldn't take me in. I stopped playing football because I needed a job and my girlfriend wanted more time together. I didn't find work and that girlfriend who I had met when I was in high school and was engaged to, broke up with me. She knew what it did to me, the mental trauma I went through, so she made actions for me to drop all of the classes I was in with her otherwise I'd be escorted away by campus security. I now am only taking 2 units. I once dreamed about having long hair. I wanted to have that goatee when I was playing ball in school. I wanted to bleach my hair with the team for league finals. I wanted so much with my hair. It wasn't until this past sunday that I learned, hair is nothing. Hair is 91% composed of protein. That means more goes to my muscles ;) But all aside, the only thing that hasn't changed in these times is my AU. It's the only thing I have left of myself. My only sense of normality.